I’m Serious!

my friends don’t find me as a serious type of person. they see me as somebody who is kinky, noisy and the like. I don’t know why, but maybe that’s just how I show myself in front of them. so I tried to convince myself that I am really like that. that I am not a hell of a serious type. but even how hard I try to convince myself to think that I am somebody who is kinky,noisy or whatever, a part of me is telling me that I am not like that. something up in this delicate worm like substance floating in some sort of fluids, which I could hardly remember the term during our biology class, keeps on telling me that I am serious.

but sometimes, even if I am in the verge of putting all my senses telling myself that I am serious, another voice inside my head, which happen to sound like my own voice, is telling me that I am not really serious at all. yes, I admit that I am really kinky, noisy and the like sometimes but I am also serious inside. Now, I am already confused what really the term serious means.

According to merriam-webster dictionary (my most used dictionary), the word serious bears a lot of possible meaning. It could mean thoughtful or subdued in appearance or manner or something relating to a matter of importance. It could also mean not joking or trifling and being in earnest or deeply interested. With all these definitions, I can say that I am somehow qualified to be called a serious type person. I may be noisy sometimes, but hey guys, there are also parcels of seriousness living in me. So please don’t judge me the way you see me. Don’t judge the book by its cover as what they say.

I just don’t like it when some of my friends say that I am not serious at all because honestly I really got offended every time I hear them say that. they may not see it but I know inside me that I am sober. Maybe I am not just the person they think they know. Maybe there are still lots they need to know about me. That is why sometimes I can say that I am not worthy of what they say.

My friend, I am not scolding you. I’m just serious.